Every day before I drift off to sleep, I lay in bed thinking- thinking about what I would like to become in future, wondering what the hell life means, picturing myself in scenarios that will never happen, trying to find inner peace.
There is always that one image that sticks with me just before the
subconscious takes over. Call it a hypnagogic hallucination, Wiki
defines it as a threshold consciousness, during the onset of sleep. In my recurrent lucid dream, I’m lying prostrate, hidden in a
thicket on top of a hill, a sniper rifle scope against my eye- Haha! I know,
very juvenile. A few hundred meters away I see what I assume is my target, a
black SUV, tinted windows, monster tyres. It’s parked in an alley, dimly lit, smoke
escapes from one of the slightly pulled down back windows. I adjust my scope to
view the car better as someone rolls down the smoking window. I hear the flick
of a lighter, I hear the sound of breaking glass over the low thudding music
coming from a nearby night club. Someone is opening the door of the SUV, I can
hear the door hissing as it opens, I adjust my scope aiming it at the opening
door and just
like that the subconscious takes over- without warning- I’m now at the mercy of
my own brain.
I have had this image for as long as I can
remember.
Sometimes I wonder if it’s a trick
played on me by my mind (I’m one of those crazy people who like to think of
their mind and their self-consciousness as two separate entities), because in
that moment right then and there I feel like nothing can hurt me, I feel safe,
maybe it’s the only way it feels I’ll let myself let go.
I'm also one of those people who
like to imagine reincarnation is real- Crazy huh? Well not so much... How do
you explain Déjà vu? How do you explain bad luck? I always wonder if the
image is a memory from another past, Yeah I like my imagination running wild
(hehe borderline madness).
Anyway these are the simple
things in life that always puzzle me not corporate structures, not balance
sheets and gross profits but reincarnation, Déjà vu and the
subconscious
I read somewhere that an article a
day makes a better writer and improves discipline, well, here are my thoughts
for the day.
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